Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	a strange way, to save the world...4him

Y Christmas....
I think that Christmas has to much stress attached to it by the world. I know so many people who get all depressed and upset becuase of the rush of holidays. Honestly this is the first year for a long time that i've actualy felt like it is really Christmas. I was just sittin here at work thinkin and prayin... and i thought of something... I haven't read the Christmas story- I haven't for years at least... i got to the point where i was like "yeah yeah i know it already" i mean i watched movies and plays about it each year, but i never really paid attention to it- i was too busy buying gifts and trying to make myself and everyone else feel "Christmasy"... but why am i buying people gifts? is it becuase i HAVE to? or is it becuase I realize that God gave me the coolest best and most awesome gift anyone ever could and i want to try to in some little way share the joy God has given me to others?...
First let me explain- life is not all sunshine and roses- i have major hard times too- but i know when i am going through those major hard times that I have God. I have a creator who loves me so much. So very much that he not only died, but SUFFERED and died for me. And in order to do all that, he had to be a human being for a while, so He came down as a baby- for you and for me- He came here as a baby to die for us all so that we could live, so that we could know that we don't have to carry Anything alone or go through ANY situation alone- no matter how hard it is, i can have joy, maybe not happiness, i might be down right depressed, but i can still have joy in knowing that whatever i'm going through i will come out stronger and better then i have been yet becuase God is there with me, holding me... and if it wasn't for his birth- which is why we celebrate Christmas- than none of that would have ever happend....so while i'm "celebrating" Christmas and having my mandatory "fun" ("Fun-datory"-thanx for that mandy ;) am i really having fun? none of us should be letting the stress of the holiday bring us down- so what if everything isn't perfect- we should so just be going out there and doing things for people cuase we want to-if we want to- not becuase we HAVE to, but becuase we want to find someway to try to bring someone a little joy and happiness... Christmas isn't about me its about what I can do for YOU, because I want to do it for you not becuase i have to... its about how i can show my love for YOU, my friends... and the coolest thing is, in bringing smiles to everyone elses faces, i find one on my own... wierd huh... well i dunno, just a thought... i love you guys! all of you, every person who's been there for me, with an ear to listen, a hug to warm, a smile to welcome me in, a word of advice or kindness... MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS!!! please as you celebrate don't forget WHY you are celebrating- cuase that's what Christmas is a celebration! I LoVe YoU!! MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!